dreams and run on sentences
hi,
i dreamt about you for the first time the night before yesterday i was with you and we didn’t talk about it you couldn’t even look at me i locked myself in the bathroom and you asked me to open the door— i can’t remember what else happened
i dreamt about you again last night i knew it was only a dream because you would never have said that to me, not after everything that happened. even after all this time my mind is still hopeful of you
i woke up in my new room my sister’s pillow was under my head and it was too fucking soft i walked down the hallway to the bathroom and my hand reached for a light switch that wasn’t there i stared at myself in the mirror there wasn’t anything unrecognizable about my face but i couldn’t find myself in the reflection i showered without a shower curtain and there was water everywhere if i had stayed in there long enough i think i would’ve drowned
everything feels unfamiliar everything is changing and i feel more overwhelmed than i have in a long time
i don’t want to think about it anymore
goodbye.